Few First Weeks OMG!!!

So finally my summer has passed, and it’s time for a new semester. However, it didn’t goes smoothly as I used to hope. The fact is… these weeks drive me crazy. I can’t believe I have a ton of work that I have to remember and do, along with stupid troubles that are needed to solve. Oh man! It pissed me off. And it causes a lot of stress that has still continued and piled up until today. I got tired for all of this. And more terrible, this gives me a lot of weird dreams at nights that I couldn’t make my sleep soundly. I always space out with no reason and feel boring, plus get impatient more often. I get more lazy, and just want to throw everything away so I don’t have to care about them. At some time like this, what I like is playing games, but the games (well yeah, now I’m playing Elsword Online) doesn’t make me satisfied (In truth, I feel like bursting out because the gameplay now of people is not nice. A lot of weird things happen in the game and people’s gameplay and strategies are quite… stingy) so I don’t usually play games now. How’s about chatting with people? No. I don’t have many friends that I want to talk to and I don’t like communicate directly either. Moreover, when I’m in trouble, I avoid to talk to people whom I feel about like they can’t sympathize with my emotion. Well, yes, it’s horrible to keep silence and bury your own feelings without sharing but for me, it’s better a lot to suffer alone than sharing but after that feeling what you tried to do is in vain. Sometimes I hope to find someone can hear and understand me but ending up finding out that my stories is just a nonsense and annoying story for them, and they even can laugh without thinking and gave me give me stupid advice that is so common and hollow. For them the trouble I have is just a trivial matter but for me, it’s serious. Maybe I’m quite strict but who knows, the serious side in me is something that helped me until now, to gain respect (perhaps it’s just my thought).

That’s why after all that, I ended up letting myself engulf in my passion of drawing. I use most of my free time at home to draw, to sketch, and to CG. When I do that, I feel like I can live and be optimist that I can let my troubles pass through and be solved later. It may sound like stupid and daydreaming but that’s my way. I don’t care if people like them or not. I feel comfortable and I’m pleased to live in ‘my world’.

 

So, I think we should end the story of mine here. I have something to show in this blog, or what I could do in my last days of summer. I love them.

First, my new ID for DA gallery. I know it’s not so nice and the line is not flexible or something like that but at least, it’s not so bad. Yeah, I’m drawing myself but of course in real life, I’m not so beautiful or cute like that (just so-so^^;). To be honest, I’m more like a tomboy. I like simple appearance and strong thought and personality. I like coolness, and people say that my face is quite poker too, or emotionless Lol. This pic, I just wanted to try the sparkling eyes that’s seen very often in shoujo manga, but since I draw boys and action more, it has the sense of shounen more instead. And the BG, just love coloring circles.

 

Second, oh my, this is the mark of my improvement this year:

I lost my original size at first, but fortunately, I had taken a photo of the WIP screen so I still got the lineart to color Lol, and it even turned out more impressive than I thought. Well, this is an art-trade for AlicePyxis, one of my DA friends. I wanted to draw my RF and her CN in a soft romantic scene and I was so satisfied because finally I could draw my in-game model (thought it’s not full body but I think it’s better). It didn’t took me so much time either, thought it has some difficult spots to CG. And I got better in BG and effect too. I just testing brushes on SAI and use a little trick on Elements 9 to emphasize the light source, and then it became extremely good. I was even more happy when people like it. Well, it’s the first time I have so many favorite adding in a very short time like this one. Thanks to this time drawing, I learn a lot of new things in making good effect and using colors.

 

And the third. Hah, a WIP from a long time ago that I used to post my 50% WIP here in one of my blog. It’s a meme that I really really wanted to do, and I like it because it has been a long time since I last draw… like this. They are all my very first OC when I started liking to do design by myself, mostly because of the inspiration from MMZ and MMZX series. When I drew them, I felt like I could see my old days and my old passion again, from the days I used pencil to the time I first got my tablet and used it until the day I ‘made friend’ with my current Intuos 4. For me they are the best designs that I used to do and create, and to be honest, though now my skill is better a lot than before but I still feel hard when drawing them Lol (dunno why but I always make silly mistakes^^;). I love them!

 

 

Yes, and it’s the last pic of my summer. I completed it one day before the first days I went back to school. Of course now I’m still drawing but for this post, I think it’s enough.

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Chat about Elsword. And What I Disliked in Those Passing Weeks

It’s been several weeks passed but I still feel some excitement when seeing this screenshot  again

Let me explain more for people who don’t play this wonderful game (in my opinion at this moment only. Well, I will talk more about this later). It’s a small event in Elsword to welcome Hamel’s Prince Chung, the newest character that makes appearance in NA version. It allow players to have full set of ArchAngel when they connect each character to the game in 60 minutes and the set will last in… one day. Well, yeah, one day, and it sucks in some opinions, because people wants it lasts longer (maybe a few days). As for me, I’m just feel quite disappointed when it disappear. ArchAngel is one of the Ice Burner set, which means the players must use K-ching (purchased by real cash) to get the full costume in a dump gamble (well, I hate fortune game). And because it’s quite hard to obtain full set, the status of each parts and together are really cool. That’s why people, especially the players who don’t have K-ching and fortune want this. Besides, because it’s an Ice Burner set, the design of it is very nice and remarkable like the other sets, and as for me, I like it because it looks elegant.

Btw, I still feel satisfied when catching that screenshot for all four of my characters. I think it’s ok for my Raven with his Gray Wolf set (though I don’t like the hair style much Lol). Oh, and my Chung looks cute in his ArchAngel. He’s a good character, though sometimes I see his back wide-opened in some of his combos, though it’s not really a big problem. I decided to choose Shooting Guardian job for him, which means he will advance into Deadly Chaser later (at the time I write this post, he’s lv35 now *heh*). I’m quite lazy for Rena and especially Eve, when she now needs her second and third unlock skills, which quests are really cruelly hard Q_Q

As I mentioned, I don’t have K-ching to buy cool outfits for play Ice Burner, so I just end up with normal outfits (Well, it’s not interesting because it make my characters look like every one’s). But one thing I like in Elsword is they allow people to try the K-ching costumes and take screenshot with it Lol, so I got some ‘cheat’ here. Hah, just joking. I just try and wish someday my other characters can look like these

 

My Eve (Code Nemesis):

 

My Rena (Combat Ranger):

 

 

My Chung (Shooting Guardian):

 

Oh, I forgot about my main and dear Raven (Reckless Fist) but he’s like that a long time ago Lol

Yeah, that’s just for his PvE and PvP (more stat Lol), but I still like he looks like this more (I like his original black-white hair very much^^)

For this model of him, I’ve made an art trade with one of my DA friends (she played Elsword after I recommended her^^) but it’s just for his half-up. I want to draw more for his body when I have time because he’s hard to draw and also because of his outfit’s complex details (actually it’s not so complex like Ice Burner sets but I still feel sometimes it’s harder to draw). For the other characters, I will consider it later (well, still hate complex details though I always put so much in my design and drawing =.=)

 

Btw, in these passing weeks, I’ve drawn something new:

The render version:

This is originally for a fan contest on Elsword NA forum. I just drew it for fun (actually for trying drawing Eve) and for luckiness but after everything, I must say that the hosts had no taste in drawing and artworks. They chose a normal artwork with no cute, no exact anatomy (though I admit that mine is not so exactly too because I didn’t take serious and forcus so much when doing something for people) and poor effects to win the contest OMG. However, I can’t blame them because each person has their own opinions about art, and bad judgement or good judgement depended on people’s eyes, what they experience and their knowledge… So, if they have bad or poor view, it’s natural, and nothing is wrong with their ‘silliness’. What I feel is just regret because it wasted my time.

 

Another artwork based on Elsword style is this one:

One day I had an idea that what if I change OC/FC based on MMZX to Elsword style because I see some similarity in the style at the beginning when I first see Elsword’s arts. Yeah, they have some association, despite Elsword’s style and designs follow more the fantasy theme and have a lot of details comparing to MMZX. But they two have good colors with high contrast and the feeling is quite the same. That’s why I want to try. First, I wanted to change my Fawnix Sky into 2nd job Elsword’s class, but his hair and face was a problem (don’t know why but I usually have more problems when drawing my own characters than doing with the others’ ones T_________T) and I stuck with some weird ideas that lacked of his own personality and characteristic, so I gave up and changed the design into one of my DA friend’s FC, Loran, and it seemed to fit him more. However, I have no information about this FC (I don’t create him so… of course) and ridiculously, the owner has no opinion at all (what a bad OC/FC creator!) except I thought that this Loran uses guns as his weapon (just guessing from the original ZX design), so I have no idea to give him a job name like I like to do and it made me less excited when completed (what I like is just my skill improvement in drawing complexity and armor). Indeed, I feel quite nonsense when finished the lineart.

 

That’s all I want to say, just feel downer and downer because of scrap stuff. I need to do something for myself later

[FC] Cross: Prime Marauder – upper concept –

Oh my, after several months stuck in a lot of ideas (and most of them were really weird and nonsense), I could came up with this design. Finally…

(Note: Something came into my head with his collar, so I decided to test and see which of them is cooler and better.)

This is the concept for one of the 1st jobs change for my Elsword FC named Cross Shievaro. The name of the job is Prime Marauder. The basic design for his original non-job was done last year, but it had some problems with the stance and lineart (the only thing I was satisfied was its CG), so I made another one with waist-up pose. However, I had another mistake when adding so many details and the way I drew was actually used for 2nd jobs design. That’s why I failed again.  I wanted to redesign him but I was so lazy and busy, so let’s see if I have a chance later.

Btw, I had idea for his 1st job design and backstory, so I did it as soon as I could see the image in my head. It took me a while though because of some reasons. First I was very confused because I had seen the art of Grand Chase Lass, and its details were neat. I was obsessed by it because my Cross is also a Marauder which is quite similar to an assassin (actually his 2nd job in this Prime path is an Assassin already^^;), and it’s become my problem. However, because Cross is FC for Elsword so I  had to use another style. Moreover, I don’t want to be a copycat and always want my characters to have their own styles and features suitable for their characteristics, so I stopped that idea (it’s quite hard though). Then I had his image in my head, but still hadn’t figured out how his outfit looked like. I later thought of Marchen of Sound Horizon and Assassin’s Creed, and Cross’s image was clearer to me, so I started my work with the first step was organizing the details of him. While doing it, I deleted some details to make the design more simple. It’s not easy. What I stuck at that time was the harmonization of his pose and details. I didn’t want his design to be so simple because it will ruin my previous Aerial Assassin concept (I created his 2nd job before doing this), nor make it complicated because that’s not for the 1st job traditional design. That’s always my problem when designing 1st job Q_Q

At last I did it, but I didn’t have time to make the full body concept (and it’s harder too). Another reason is with this angle it’s really hard to show the full body with perfect proportion (it’s an angle that I rarely draw and when I tried to sketch the full body, it became weird), so instead of drawing the full proportion, I saved it for another canvas of him that I made earlier but just finished a part of his head (I’m still practicing how to draw his eyes look the same way as other Elsword official characters Lol), and focused on his outfit details.

And when I had made his visual design, I had the idea for his job’s background. It’s the continuation of his backstory that I made when I finished his non-job and posted it on my gallery. Actually if you play Elsword, you will know that there are 2 (but now is 3 Lol) paths for a character’s job. I made Cross follow that rule too. His 1st jobs are Prime Marauder (this design), Harsh Marauder and Trickster Marauder. The other two I will make later because now I don’t have so many ideas (I got the basic but… the same problem as Prime Marauder concept). Ok, stop talking about this. This is the background story for Prime Marauder. I like this story because it may be the deepest one between three backgrounds. I tried everything to make it unique and not sound-like Raven’s story, and I think I did it.

 

So, the Backstory of Prime Marauder:

 

To become a slaver of devil, that’s the thing which Cross had never wanted.

Every time he thought about his past, every night he submerged in the nightmares, he was haunted by what he had done.

The crimes he had committed was a truth that he couldn’t deny or run away, so he accepted to face it, even if it meant the punishment and the pain he suffered was more terrible than a torture.

But Cross was not a person who just knew how to regret yet did nothing. He always remembered his duty as a Guardian of El Stone and he would do every thing he could to restore the peace and the order in Elios as well as redeemed for this sins.

However, the evil that lurked into him constantly tried to take over his soul again when it had a chance, and Cross feared that. He did everything to resist it, but the wound in the past that Fantome had caused to his soul was too serious and it might never be healed. Moreover, Cross’s power now was not enough for him to destroy Fantome, nor even protected himself from being engulfed in darkness, and he could lose himself again, forever.

He didn’t want the tragedy to be replay, nor became the enemy of the world. He didn’t want anybody to sacrifice…

Fortunately, at the moment he struggled with his another ego and almost lost, the alchemists in Elios saved his life by inventing a potion that could keep his mind stable, so he could maintain his true self. However, he acknowledged that this wouldn’t last long because Fantome was not a normal devil and its pwer was incredible that could easily defeat him anytime. Despite of that, the Elios people helped him a lot to buy time for him and he didn’t want to waste it. While training hard to keep his spirit strong at the same time as fighting against the devil, Cross was searching for a way to restore his power because he knew that was the only way he could win this battle.

Cross’s combat skills and knowledge had been expert for a long time he was in battlefield, and now with his hard training, his special abilities and potential in melee combat was awaken again. Combining with the demon’s power that he channeled it into his advantage, his strength now was even beyond the best marauders and assassins in Elios. And with his title “Prime Marauder”, Cross became a rival that his enemies should beware and scared. Watch out for the daggers danced their deadly melody of lament!

 

It sounds good, doesn’t it? Because Prime Marauder is the closest job to Cross’s story, I put hard on it and tried not to make him a typical pure hero like Elsword or Blade Master Raven. Yeah, he’s still in the way of a dark hero. I think it’s cooler to make the story like this, so it will match with his Aerial Assassin’s backstory later. And this is more little hint about it. This job’s backstory focuses on the part of his characteristic of maturity, coldness, complexity and mystery (the other characteristics still appear but not so clear as these), while in the opposite Harsh Marauder, we can see a heartless, evil, rebellious and warlike Cross. The last one Trickster Marauder I haven’t figured it out but it may follow the path of his teasing, energetic and wicked side. However, at this time I want to focus on the Prime first, so I can make him better.