Few First Weeks OMG!!!

So finally my summer has passed, and it’s time for a new semester. However, it didn’t goes smoothly as I used to hope. The fact is… these weeks drive me crazy. I can’t believe I have a ton of work that I have to remember and do, along with stupid troubles that are needed to solve. Oh man! It pissed me off. And it causes a lot of stress that has still continued and piled up until today. I got tired for all of this. And more terrible, this gives me a lot of weird dreams at nights that I couldn’t make my sleep soundly. I always space out with no reason and feel boring, plus get impatient more often. I get more lazy, and just want to throw everything away so I don’t have to care about them. At some time like this, what I like is playing games, but the games (well yeah, now I’m playing Elsword Online) doesn’t make me satisfied (In truth, I feel like bursting out because the gameplay now of people is not nice. A lot of weird things happen in the game and people’s gameplay and strategies are quite… stingy) so I don’t usually play games now. How’s about chatting with people? No. I don’t have many friends that I want to talk to and I don’t like communicate directly either. Moreover, when I’m in trouble, I avoid to talk to people whom I feel about like they can’t sympathize with my emotion. Well, yes, it’s horrible to keep silence and bury your own feelings without sharing but for me, it’s better a lot to suffer alone than sharing but after that feeling what you tried to do is in vain. Sometimes I hope to find someone can hear and understand me but ending up finding out that my stories is just a nonsense and annoying story for them, and they even can laugh without thinking and gave me give me stupid advice that is so common and hollow. For them the trouble I have is just a trivial matter but for me, it’s serious. Maybe I’m quite strict but who knows, the serious side in me is something that helped me until now, to gain respect (perhaps it’s just my thought).

That’s why after all that, I ended up letting myself engulf in my passion of drawing. I use most of my free time at home to draw, to sketch, and to CG. When I do that, I feel like I can live and be optimist that I can let my troubles pass through and be solved later. It may sound like stupid and daydreaming but that’s my way. I don’t care if people like them or not. I feel comfortable and I’m pleased to live in ‘my world’.

 

So, I think we should end the story of mine here. I have something to show in this blog, or what I could do in my last days of summer. I love them.

First, my new ID for DA gallery. I know it’s not so nice and the line is not flexible or something like that but at least, it’s not so bad. Yeah, I’m drawing myself but of course in real life, I’m not so beautiful or cute like that (just so-so^^;). To be honest, I’m more like a tomboy. I like simple appearance and strong thought and personality. I like coolness, and people say that my face is quite poker too, or emotionless Lol. This pic, I just wanted to try the sparkling eyes that’s seen very often in shoujo manga, but since I draw boys and action more, it has the sense of shounen more instead. And the BG, just love coloring circles.

 

Second, oh my, this is the mark of my improvement this year:

I lost my original size at first, but fortunately, I had taken a photo of the WIP screen so I still got the lineart to color Lol, and it even turned out more impressive than I thought. Well, this is an art-trade for AlicePyxis, one of my DA friends. I wanted to draw my RF and her CN in a soft romantic scene and I was so satisfied because finally I could draw my in-game model (thought it’s not full body but I think it’s better). It didn’t took me so much time either, thought it has some difficult spots to CG. And I got better in BG and effect too. I just testing brushes on SAI and use a little trick on Elements 9 to emphasize the light source, and then it became extremely good. I was even more happy when people like it. Well, it’s the first time I have so many favorite adding in a very short time like this one. Thanks to this time drawing, I learn a lot of new things in making good effect and using colors.

 

And the third. Hah, a WIP from a long time ago that I used to post my 50% WIP here in one of my blog. It’s a meme that I really really wanted to do, and I like it because it has been a long time since I last draw… like this. They are all my very first OC when I started liking to do design by myself, mostly because of the inspiration from MMZ and MMZX series. When I drew them, I felt like I could see my old days and my old passion again, from the days I used pencil to the time I first got my tablet and used it until the day I ‘made friend’ with my current Intuos 4. For me they are the best designs that I used to do and create, and to be honest, though now my skill is better a lot than before but I still feel hard when drawing them Lol (dunno why but I always make silly mistakes^^;). I love them!

 

 

Yes, and it’s the last pic of my summer. I completed it one day before the first days I went back to school. Of course now I’m still drawing but for this post, I think it’s enough.

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New Artworks These Weeks

I’m being addicted to an anime called Nurarihyon no Mago these days. That’s why I haven’t had time (well, just an nonsense excuse reason I’ve got here^^) to write any post. Nah, it’s true that I’m enjoying my summer break, but I have so many things in my head that I want to do them all, and the result is, I don’t have time for every thing. Indeed, sometimes I think I’m a greedy person, or to be exact, a perfectionist and a workaholic. I always have a lot of ideas, so many that I can’t decide which one I should do first, and once I start to do something with that idea, I want the result I gain is at least acceptable. I usually set a high standard and get myself busy with it in oder to  feel that I don’t waste time in this life, or to let myself not think about what I don’t want to think or about negative things, so I can find a better way to deal with my real problem later… Of course what I do is what I want to do, and I rarely force myself to do what I don’t like if it’s not an obligation or a duty that necessary to do for my and the others’ sakes (sometimes it becomes my disadvantage^^;).

K, that’s time for a little chit-chat. Btw, let’s change the atmosphere. I will show you something that I did in these weeks’ mean time. Another artworks of mine. I just like to do this, drawing, painting… It makes me more love myself and be more optimistic. This time I want to do something different. I want to try other kinds of brush. Like I told you, I’m watching Nurarihyon no Mago now, and I was interested in the prologue scene when they introduce Nurarihyon. That’s the scene they draw in Chinese/Japanese brush style, and I like it. So I tried to analyze it and make a brush to see if it’s similar to what they used in the scene. And the result is like this:

Unfortunately, it’s not so look-a-like Lol, because I used ‘crayon’ and the brush ‘Paper’ with some adjustment for this, while in the original picture it looks exact like the traditional Japanese painting. I guess I should try another brush for the next time. Hope it will be better. Btw, I like this time’s artwork, seems to be I’ve got something new and different from the previous times. I’m glad and I want to try it more. Ah, and if anybody want to see the original picture that I based on, here it is. Well, good for a comparison:

From Nurarihyon no Mago series (Translation: Nurarihyon’s grandson. English release: Nura: Rise of the yokai clan). I think this guy looks cool^^

Oh, and about the character in my pic. I chose my old Arez (full name is Arez Tigrismachiney =>quite long and weird for a name eh^^;;) to test the new style this time. It’s been a long time since I last drew him, cuz I want to find some way to change my drawing style for this FC. This time, I love to draw his eyes (I rarely draw small and sharp eyes like that), but I failed at making him look like a boy. Talking more about this, this FC is an murderous assassin in spite of his childish appearance (Actually he’s not a child. There’s a story behind this and a reason why he keeps this appearance though his age and mind are the same as an adult). That’s why I want him to look like a child with a cold and heartless eyes to show his dangerous and emotionless… and it becomes the hardest part when drawing this guy, and I haven’t succeeded in this=.= I need to try more. However, I think this time when I choose the color and the CG style, it’s somehow suitable for him. Yeah, a lot (it’s hide some wrong point when I draw his hair, which I used to be complained that it’s quite complicated^^;). And I like how I made the splashing blood. Some times I enjoy doing this, don’t know why. Well, it’s not so hard to do the effect, but to make it ‘logical’, it needs to be quite careful.

Ah, and the last week is for another Eldoodle. This is the pic for this time:

I made it quite fast, and my new record is 3 hours. Indeed I didn’t intend to do the entry this time, cuz I was so busy with anime Nurarihyon Lol (again^^) that I wanted to skip it. But at the last minutes I still did it in my traditional Elsword CG, and it was surprise that I made it rapidly. Well, the reason was I want the K-ching Lol, and I did really received 1000 thanks to this. I used them and my previous K-ching for a costume for my dear Raven and buy a slot for my incoming Chung Seiker (I intend to do the job of Deadly Chaser when I get him). However, I still, in my opinion, hate Aisha very much, maybe the most imbalance character who is just good at spamming and trolling and without playing for real. So, that’s one of the reasons why I don’t like drawing Aisha, and if it’s not because of the K-ching… Yeah, I didn’t put so much effort into this.

And finally, this is my latest picture. Like I said above, I really like Nurarihyon no Mago, so I want to make some fan arts for this. And I want to draw Kubinashi, who is my favourite male character after Nura Rikuo. I think that guy is cool, not only his background story, but I like the way his head floating above his body *Lol* (he has no neck, of course). Quite creepy, but quite cute, especially when his head out of his body and rebound like a ball *lmao*. And his technique with strings is something that interests me. Well, it’s hard to believe a character with string attack can become one of the most dangerous, but this guy do and it’s impressive when he put his ‘Fear’ into strings to make them like chains. And, because of that, I like him (just to find a remarkable character here)

Well, from the previous time I drew Arez, I think I saw more in the style of Chinese brush, so I want to test here. At the first time, I drew this picture of Kubinashi as a doodle, but since I want to do something more, I put the lineart. And I was interested in it because the line with the random difference in thickness is like a practice with the wrist and to check the quality of tablet. Of course with an Intuos 4, there’s no doubt about the quality (it’s expensive like hell but it worths for my money^^). The main point here is the wrist. It creates the different pressures depended on how you control it. And I was excited. But because I haven’t done it quite often, it took time quite much. However, each time I do something new, I learn a lot, and I can make better and faster next time. So I think I just keep trying

Well, and I may color it in the new way if I have enough inspiration lol.

Oh, and the last thing is, Nurarihyon no Mago is a good series. If you like cool characters and a quite crazy and weird plot of demon, you should give it a try. It won’t make you disappointed.

[FC] Cross: Prime Marauder – upper concept –

Oh my, after several months stuck in a lot of ideas (and most of them were really weird and nonsense), I could came up with this design. Finally…

(Note: Something came into my head with his collar, so I decided to test and see which of them is cooler and better.)

This is the concept for one of the 1st jobs change for my Elsword FC named Cross Shievaro. The name of the job is Prime Marauder. The basic design for his original non-job was done last year, but it had some problems with the stance and lineart (the only thing I was satisfied was its CG), so I made another one with waist-up pose. However, I had another mistake when adding so many details and the way I drew was actually used for 2nd jobs design. That’s why I failed again.  I wanted to redesign him but I was so lazy and busy, so let’s see if I have a chance later.

Btw, I had idea for his 1st job design and backstory, so I did it as soon as I could see the image in my head. It took me a while though because of some reasons. First I was very confused because I had seen the art of Grand Chase Lass, and its details were neat. I was obsessed by it because my Cross is also a Marauder which is quite similar to an assassin (actually his 2nd job in this Prime path is an Assassin already^^;), and it’s become my problem. However, because Cross is FC for Elsword so I  had to use another style. Moreover, I don’t want to be a copycat and always want my characters to have their own styles and features suitable for their characteristics, so I stopped that idea (it’s quite hard though). Then I had his image in my head, but still hadn’t figured out how his outfit looked like. I later thought of Marchen of Sound Horizon and Assassin’s Creed, and Cross’s image was clearer to me, so I started my work with the first step was organizing the details of him. While doing it, I deleted some details to make the design more simple. It’s not easy. What I stuck at that time was the harmonization of his pose and details. I didn’t want his design to be so simple because it will ruin my previous Aerial Assassin concept (I created his 2nd job before doing this), nor make it complicated because that’s not for the 1st job traditional design. That’s always my problem when designing 1st job Q_Q

At last I did it, but I didn’t have time to make the full body concept (and it’s harder too). Another reason is with this angle it’s really hard to show the full body with perfect proportion (it’s an angle that I rarely draw and when I tried to sketch the full body, it became weird), so instead of drawing the full proportion, I saved it for another canvas of him that I made earlier but just finished a part of his head (I’m still practicing how to draw his eyes look the same way as other Elsword official characters Lol), and focused on his outfit details.

And when I had made his visual design, I had the idea for his job’s background. It’s the continuation of his backstory that I made when I finished his non-job and posted it on my gallery. Actually if you play Elsword, you will know that there are 2 (but now is 3 Lol) paths for a character’s job. I made Cross follow that rule too. His 1st jobs are Prime Marauder (this design), Harsh Marauder and Trickster Marauder. The other two I will make later because now I don’t have so many ideas (I got the basic but… the same problem as Prime Marauder concept). Ok, stop talking about this. This is the background story for Prime Marauder. I like this story because it may be the deepest one between three backgrounds. I tried everything to make it unique and not sound-like Raven’s story, and I think I did it.

 

So, the Backstory of Prime Marauder:

 

To become a slaver of devil, that’s the thing which Cross had never wanted.

Every time he thought about his past, every night he submerged in the nightmares, he was haunted by what he had done.

The crimes he had committed was a truth that he couldn’t deny or run away, so he accepted to face it, even if it meant the punishment and the pain he suffered was more terrible than a torture.

But Cross was not a person who just knew how to regret yet did nothing. He always remembered his duty as a Guardian of El Stone and he would do every thing he could to restore the peace and the order in Elios as well as redeemed for this sins.

However, the evil that lurked into him constantly tried to take over his soul again when it had a chance, and Cross feared that. He did everything to resist it, but the wound in the past that Fantome had caused to his soul was too serious and it might never be healed. Moreover, Cross’s power now was not enough for him to destroy Fantome, nor even protected himself from being engulfed in darkness, and he could lose himself again, forever.

He didn’t want the tragedy to be replay, nor became the enemy of the world. He didn’t want anybody to sacrifice…

Fortunately, at the moment he struggled with his another ego and almost lost, the alchemists in Elios saved his life by inventing a potion that could keep his mind stable, so he could maintain his true self. However, he acknowledged that this wouldn’t last long because Fantome was not a normal devil and its pwer was incredible that could easily defeat him anytime. Despite of that, the Elios people helped him a lot to buy time for him and he didn’t want to waste it. While training hard to keep his spirit strong at the same time as fighting against the devil, Cross was searching for a way to restore his power because he knew that was the only way he could win this battle.

Cross’s combat skills and knowledge had been expert for a long time he was in battlefield, and now with his hard training, his special abilities and potential in melee combat was awaken again. Combining with the demon’s power that he channeled it into his advantage, his strength now was even beyond the best marauders and assassins in Elios. And with his title “Prime Marauder”, Cross became a rival that his enemies should beware and scared. Watch out for the daggers danced their deadly melody of lament!

 

It sounds good, doesn’t it? Because Prime Marauder is the closest job to Cross’s story, I put hard on it and tried not to make him a typical pure hero like Elsword or Blade Master Raven. Yeah, he’s still in the way of a dark hero. I think it’s cooler to make the story like this, so it will match with his Aerial Assassin’s backstory later. And this is more little hint about it. This job’s backstory focuses on the part of his characteristic of maturity, coldness, complexity and mystery (the other characteristics still appear but not so clear as these), while in the opposite Harsh Marauder, we can see a heartless, evil, rebellious and warlike Cross. The last one Trickster Marauder I haven’t figured it out but it may follow the path of his teasing, energetic and wicked side. However, at this time I want to focus on the Prime first, so I can make him better.

Something before the final exam. Meme half progress.

Oh well, long time have no post. I haven’t forgotten or abandoned this blog, really, I don’t intended to do that. Just because I have a bad cold these days and it makes me very tired. Plus, my final exam is near, so I want to save time to focus on it. Actually I know that this examination is nothing to me because these class I’m learning are very easy, but I still want to be hard-working to improve my English (though the fact is that I’m not so really hard^^;). I decided to skip classes in the next semester, so I asked my teacher for giving me the permission to take the placement test again cuz I wanted to learn in the class that  fit to my level. And the result of the test was really good. I skipped 4 classes and jumped to the highest class that the test allowed me to pass. I was happy but I was also worry because the level of the class I got is quite high comparing to my level now I think. However, I asked everyone and they encouraged me that I should do what I had from the test and so it gave me more confidence. And because of the grade of the test, my teacher was so kind to offer me a job as a college tutor. I was so glad because I’m crazy to find a part-time job that is suitable for me (well, my health doesn’t allow me to do everything) and now I will have a job I want. I hope that everything will go well because this job is useful to me. I can learn more and have more chance to practice, as well as getting more experience. Well, but that’s the future story. Now I must take care of the final exam first. I don’t want bad grades, so I guess I must push myself more in these days when my head is always in somewhere Lol.

But everything can’t make me stop doing what I like. Well, I use my little free time to draw besides playing Elsword and watching Shining Hearts, though in these days my drawing speed is too bad. However, I manage to get some ideas, but I doubt if I can do them Lol. Well, they’re mostly for my FC Cross/Kurosu. But, leave him behind for the next time. Now I’m happy that I can go the half-way of this (it took me several months I think cuz I don’t have time)

 

I borrowed this meme from the Deviantart and was interested in it. And luckily, my FCs for HE is more than enough for this. However, I want to test a new style so it took me some time. I decided not to use MMZX style but my own style instead. Will continue to work until it finish. So, please see it as a preview (well, 100% is better than 50% zooming, but…^^)

H.E Voice Test part 1

Long time no think about my fiction (i was too busy and had no inspiration so I left it and wait until I can continue to do it again though I’m doubtful about the possibility) and I’ve suddenly got this surprise.

This is just a sample to test the voice for 2 main characters in my fiction based on Mega Man ZX series called Mega Man ZX Holy Era. I didn’t make it. It was made and posted by one of my partners whose nickname is Venom00 (RM2312ed on Youtube). He made this couple of days ago by borrowing the voice from the anime and sent it to me. Well, it makes me excited, and maybe it’s one of the rare things that I can feel happy with in these stressful days. To be honest, I’m bad at voice and remembering the name of the seiyuu (actually it hard for me remember names generally), so I can only imagine how my characters’ voices hear like but never make it. I mean, find suitable voices for them.

And this sample is really good. Not mention about the voices but just the reason that these two guys are my most favorite FCs (or OCs at sometimes when I don’t like to put them in the setting of the fiction) of all the time is enough to make me excited.

 

(Fawnix: “It’s really tragic. The majority of people wish not with good intentions…but with evil intentions under the name of greed.”

Noir: “There’s no exception. I’ve decided. I’ll kill you myself. Just exactly how I like it…”)

 

Oh well, the first picture (of Fawnix) is what I drew a long time ago, but the second one for Noir/Reino is not what I made. Actually I’ve never completed Noir’s concept before. That’s why I haven’t got a real CG palette for him. Now I must think about it. I’ll certainly draw him someday. However, I’m afraid of my style. Recently I haven’t been able to draw with my old ZX style. I don’t know why, maybe I haven’t used it for a long time. Another reason may be because I’ve been affected by the style of the other series that I know such as Elsword, Code Geass, Roman… I’m so confused. It’s really hard to follow one style when you know so many others, and mixing style is something certainly happens. However, when the style is mixed, they won’t follow the original, and the spirit or expression will be different a lot. That’s what I’m worrying about. Before I couldn’t make Noir concept because his design is cruelly hard to draw (I must say that I admire what I have in my head Lol), but now when my skill is improved and I have my own good equiment (thanks to my Wacom that helps me a lot in drawing these times), I can’t make it in ZX-look-like style. Oh man, that’s really troublesome. I have to find a way to solve this.

Oops, it seems I’m off topic =”=. Well, about the voice… Sound cool, huh?^^ I really like the voice of Hiroki Touchi here. It fits Fawnix’s personality very well (and the quote is good too^^). The same as Noir with Tomokazu Seki, though I think it lacks something for this character (actually I think the later part is better). I mean, his coldness and heartlessness has something more to do with it. Maybe because his personality is deeper than what we can see. However, I think it’s just my sense, maybe because I put to much hope and effort in this character (he’s still the one I like most, especially on days when I’m feeling down)… Anyway, my friend did his good job for this.

And about my FCs, maybe I will talk more about them later when I have time. There’s something I want to make clear about them, not for anyone knew about my project before but also for me to figure their personality out better because of their complex thoughts and characters. For me they are interesting, and I love them so much along with my other FCs (but maybe more than the others^^). So I’ll definitely do it.