Few First Weeks OMG!!!

So finally my summer has passed, and it’s time for a new semester. However, it didn’t goes smoothly as I used to hope. The fact is… these weeks drive me crazy. I can’t believe I have a ton of work that I have to remember and do, along with stupid troubles that are needed to solve. Oh man! It pissed me off. And it causes a lot of stress that has still continued and piled up until today. I got tired for all of this. And more terrible, this gives me a lot of weird dreams at nights that I couldn’t make my sleep soundly. I always space out with no reason and feel boring, plus get impatient more often. I get more lazy, and just want to throw everything away so I don’t have to care about them. At some time like this, what I like is playing games, but the games (well yeah, now I’m playing Elsword Online) doesn’t make me satisfied (In truth, I feel like bursting out because the gameplay now of people is not nice. A lot of weird things happen in the game and people’s gameplay and strategies are quite… stingy) so I don’t usually play games now. How’s about chatting with people? No. I don’t have many friends that I want to talk to and I don’t like communicate directly either. Moreover, when I’m in trouble, I avoid to talk to people whom I feel about like they can’t sympathize with my emotion. Well, yes, it’s horrible to keep silence and bury your own feelings without sharing but for me, it’s better a lot to suffer alone than sharing but after that feeling what you tried to do is in vain. Sometimes I hope to find someone can hear and understand me but ending up finding out that my stories is just a nonsense and annoying story for them, and they even can laugh without thinking and gave me give me stupid advice that is so common and hollow. For them the trouble I have is just a trivial matter but for me, it’s serious. Maybe I’m quite strict but who knows, the serious side in me is something that helped me until now, to gain respect (perhaps it’s just my thought).

That’s why after all that, I ended up letting myself engulf in my passion of drawing. I use most of my free time at home to draw, to sketch, and to CG. When I do that, I feel like I can live and be optimist that I can let my troubles pass through and be solved later. It may sound like stupid and daydreaming but that’s my way. I don’t care if people like them or not. I feel comfortable and I’m pleased to live in ‘my world’.

 

So, I think we should end the story of mine here. I have something to show in this blog, or what I could do in my last days of summer. I love them.

First, my new ID for DA gallery. I know it’s not so nice and the line is not flexible or something like that but at least, it’s not so bad. Yeah, I’m drawing myself but of course in real life, I’m not so beautiful or cute like that (just so-so^^;). To be honest, I’m more like a tomboy. I like simple appearance and strong thought and personality. I like coolness, and people say that my face is quite poker too, or emotionless Lol. This pic, I just wanted to try the sparkling eyes that’s seen very often in shoujo manga, but since I draw boys and action more, it has the sense of shounen more instead. And the BG, just love coloring circles.

 

Second, oh my, this is the mark of my improvement this year:

I lost my original size at first, but fortunately, I had taken a photo of the WIP screen so I still got the lineart to color Lol, and it even turned out more impressive than I thought. Well, this is an art-trade for AlicePyxis, one of my DA friends. I wanted to draw my RF and her CN in a soft romantic scene and I was so satisfied because finally I could draw my in-game model (thought it’s not full body but I think it’s better). It didn’t took me so much time either, thought it has some difficult spots to CG. And I got better in BG and effect too. I just testing brushes on SAI and use a little trick on Elements 9 to emphasize the light source, and then it became extremely good. I was even more happy when people like it. Well, it’s the first time I have so many favorite adding in a very short time like this one. Thanks to this time drawing, I learn a lot of new things in making good effect and using colors.

 

And the third. Hah, a WIP from a long time ago that I used to post my 50% WIP here in one of my blog. It’s a meme that I really really wanted to do, and I like it because it has been a long time since I last draw… like this. They are all my very first OC when I started liking to do design by myself, mostly because of the inspiration from MMZ and MMZX series. When I drew them, I felt like I could see my old days and my old passion again, from the days I used pencil to the time I first got my tablet and used it until the day I ‘made friend’ with my current Intuos 4. For me they are the best designs that I used to do and create, and to be honest, though now my skill is better a lot than before but I still feel hard when drawing them Lol (dunno why but I always make silly mistakes^^;). I love them!

 

 

Yes, and it’s the last pic of my summer. I completed it one day before the first days I went back to school. Of course now I’m still drawing but for this post, I think it’s enough.

Chat about Elsword. And What I Disliked in Those Passing Weeks

It’s been several weeks passed but I still feel some excitement when seeing this screenshot ¬†again

Let me explain more for people who don’t play this wonderful game (in my opinion at this moment only. Well, I will talk more about this later). It’s a small event in Elsword to welcome Hamel’s Prince Chung, the newest character that makes appearance in NA version. It allow players to have full set of ArchAngel when they connect each character to the game in 60 minutes and the set will last in… one day. Well, yeah, one day, and it sucks in some opinions, because people wants it lasts longer (maybe a few days). As for me, I’m just feel quite disappointed when it disappear. ArchAngel is one of the Ice Burner set, which means the players must use K-ching (purchased by real cash) to get the full costume in a dump gamble (well, I hate fortune game). And because it’s quite hard to obtain full set, the status of each parts and together are really cool. That’s why people, especially the players who don’t have K-ching and fortune want this. Besides, because it’s an Ice Burner set, the design of it is very nice and remarkable like the other sets, and as for me, I like it because it looks elegant.

Btw, I still feel satisfied when catching that screenshot for all four of my characters. I think it’s ok for my Raven with his Gray Wolf set (though I don’t like the hair style much Lol). Oh, and my Chung looks cute in his ArchAngel. He’s a good character, though sometimes I see his back wide-opened in some of his combos, though it’s not really a big problem. I decided to choose Shooting Guardian job for him, which means he will advance into Deadly Chaser later (at the time I write this post, he’s lv35 now *heh*). I’m quite lazy for Rena and especially Eve, when she now needs her second and third unlock skills, which quests are really cruelly hard Q_Q

As I mentioned, I don’t have K-ching to buy cool outfits for play Ice Burner, so I just end up with normal outfits (Well, it’s not interesting because it make my characters look like every one’s). But one thing I like in Elsword is they allow people to try the K-ching costumes and take screenshot with it Lol, so I got some ‘cheat’ here. Hah, just joking. I just try and wish someday my other characters can look like these

 

My Eve (Code Nemesis):

 

My Rena (Combat Ranger):

 

 

My Chung (Shooting Guardian):

 

Oh, I forgot about my main and dear Raven (Reckless Fist) but he’s like that a long time ago Lol

Yeah, that’s just for his PvE and PvP (more stat Lol), but I still like he looks like this more (I like his original black-white hair very much^^)

For this model of him, I’ve made an art trade with one of my DA friends (she played Elsword after I recommended her^^) but it’s just for his half-up. I want to draw more for his body when I have time because he’s hard to draw and also because of his outfit’s complex details (actually it’s not so complex like Ice Burner sets but I still feel sometimes it’s harder to draw). For the other characters, I will consider it later (well, still hate complex details though I always put so much in my design and drawing =.=)

 

Btw, in these passing weeks, I’ve drawn something new:

The render version:

This is originally for a fan contest on Elsword NA forum. I just drew it for fun (actually for trying drawing Eve) and for luckiness but after everything, I must say that the hosts had no taste in drawing and artworks. They chose a normal artwork with no cute, no exact anatomy (though I admit that mine is not so exactly too because I didn’t take serious and forcus so much when doing something for people) and poor effects to win the contest OMG. However, I can’t blame them because each person has their own opinions about art, and bad judgement or good judgement depended on people’s eyes, what they experience and their knowledge… So, if they have bad or poor view, it’s natural, and nothing is wrong with their ‘silliness’. What I feel is just regret because it wasted my time.

 

Another artwork based on Elsword style is this one:

One day I had an idea that what if I change OC/FC based on MMZX to Elsword style because I see some similarity in the style at the beginning when I first see Elsword’s arts. Yeah, they have some association, despite Elsword’s style and designs follow more the fantasy theme and have a lot of details comparing to MMZX. But they two have good colors with high contrast and the feeling is quite the same. That’s why I want to try. First, I wanted to change my Fawnix Sky into 2nd job Elsword’s class, but his hair and face was a problem (don’t know why but I usually have more problems when drawing my own characters than doing with the others’ ones T_________T) and I stuck with some weird ideas that lacked of his own personality and characteristic, so I gave up and changed the design into one of my DA friend’s FC, Loran, and it seemed to fit him more. However, I have no information about this FC (I don’t create him so… of course) and ridiculously, the owner has no opinion at all (what a bad OC/FC creator!) except I thought that this Loran uses guns as his weapon (just guessing from the original ZX design), so I have no idea to give him a job name like I like to do and it made me less excited when completed (what I like is just my skill improvement in drawing complexity and armor). Indeed, I feel quite nonsense when finished the lineart.

 

That’s all I want to say, just feel downer and downer because of scrap stuff. I need to do something for myself later

My First Commission for Elsword Lol

Ah, it seems to be a long time without a post, eh. I guess it’s more than 1 week since I posted the last one. The reason is I had an art commission on Elsword Online NA forum and this guy wanted me to draw his own Elsword model. So, I spent a whole week just for it. Indeed, this is my first art commission I’ve ever done. I used to open a commission slot on Deviantart but I was not lucky in this kind and it seemed to be failed completely Lol. But talking about this, if this, I mean drawing work, is a business and all for business, I don’t care about this. I’ve just finished what my clients want, though sometimes I don’t have interest in it (well, work can ruin what is your hobby and you may don’t have any inspiration with it. Why? Because it becomes your obligation and agreement) and I guess it just waste of my time and gray matter with no specialty or improvement. That’s why I’m rarely satisfied myself when drawing request (oh, except for my close friends. Their designs are something I may find interest) and I do all I can to deny it. However, the thing that helps me to do what I dislike is the payment. Yeah, payment can be counted here. That’s always the main point of work.

Of course this commission is not out of that rule. Still, I find some interest in this. Maybe because I like these sets in Elsword games: Salavatore and ArchDevil. To be honest, I always want an Ice Burner set for my character(s). However, it’s so cruel that they use K-ching meaning the real cash here. I have some K-ching too, mainly from the contests on the main site, but when I use Ice Burner, what I get is something quite stupid. I mean, I don’t need them much. So, maybe that helped me get inspiration and spent my last week for it. And when it was done… I like it. Look at the finished artwork, I think my skill in CG following Elsword style has improved. I really like the hair coloring, though in my opinion, I’m still fond of spiky hair more Lol. The details on the dress was quite good too. Oh, I love the color, dark red and black, with yellow hems. And the fun thing I think is sometimes something was made carelessly might be better a lot and save more time than doing carefully. That’s when I want to talk about my OC/FC artworks Lol. For example, my Prime Marauder was just drew in waist-up simple stance. However, it tool me more than 1 week and til now I haven’t finished it OMG… I couldn’t find a way to boost my speed up, and that’s why my original works get to nowhere *sigh*.

The last thing I thought but it made me quite disappointed is why I could draw people model but not mine. I mean, I love my Raven and his design now, but I couldn’t draw him seriously. I couldn’t make an emotion or a stance that I want him to be in my artwork. Maybe because he’s hard to draw, but maybe because I’m not good. Oh my, I stuck in my perfection much so I couldn’t do what I like and care. How’s boring!

Ok, this is the result of the commission:

Guess I have to relax and use time to care for my stuff now.